Today has been an extremely hard day but a wonderful day too. Today is my Mother's birthday. She would have been 56. She was a gracious and loving woman with a spirit for life and a great love for the Lord and her family. She was a Mother, a mentor, a friend, a shoulder to cry on and the one person I could count on without a doubt until I met Bert. My mother raised me to be quiet when appropriate but also that I had a voice and no one could take that from me. I hope that one day that I can be half the woman that she was. She raised me to trust in the Lord and to follow a path of faith and love with forgiveness. I miss her every day but days like today are harder because she is not here for me to call with an update on the baby.
Our doctor's appointment went well. Lyndee is growing and now weighs in at 12 oz. I am 21 weeks and am doing well. I have only gained 10 pounds and my blood sugar and blood pressure are both under control. I am so extremely blessed to be experiencing motherhood and parenthood with the man that has been my rock, Momma called him her "Bert Baby". I know that she would be so excited and proud. I just wish that she was here to share it with us.
Momma I love you and understand that you cannot be here but it still hurts to know that my baby will never know the love of such a wonderful Nanny. I love you now and forever. Watch over us in our journey as I know you do.
She is watching over you every day! You are going to be an amazing mom just like her and just think of all the stories you will have to tell Lyndee about Nanny. Lyndee has her very own very special guardian angel watching over her - and you mom would be SO PROUD of you!!!!
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